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牙疼个展：皱起的雾

Ya Teng DL Solo Exhibition: Crlinkled Fog

开幕：2019年4月30日，下午4点

策展人：吴曦煌

展期：2019年4月30日-2019年5月29日

• 地点：三影堂厦门摄影艺术中心

  厦门市集美区杏林湾营运中心2号楼301 

Organizer:  Three Shadows Xiamen Photography Art Centre

Opening: 16:00, April 30th, 2019

Curator: Wu Xihuang

Duration: April 30th, 2019 - May 29th, 2019  

(9:30-17:30 Closed on Mondays)

Location: Three Shadows Xiamen Photography Art Centre 

(No. 301, Building 2, Xinglinwan Business Center, Jimei District, Xiamen)

“像是两种不同体验的生活时空，轮流经过我这颗小小生命：一种是盈盈面对众人，繁花似锦；另一种独独敞向我，世间沧桑。”   ——摄影师 牙疼

2018年起，摄影师牙疼开启他100位抑郁症女孩的拍摄计划，在全国各地寻找拍摄对象。时间行进到2019年，牙疼带着一年多来积累的影像和背后的故事，带着一场“皱起的雾”来到厦门三影堂。这次，他想把这些记录过的独特人生经历坦露出来，让更多观众通过他的观察了解到这个群体。

摄影师

牙疼，90后独立摄影师

微博知名摄影博主@牙疼老爷爷

国内外多家杂志供稿人

2018年京东摄影金像奖

最佳青年摄影师

“摄影是我的生活语言，用自己的镜头传递力量”

摄影师的自白

一个充满活力的年轻人，一个独立摄影师，一个好的家庭成员，一个……和大家都能想到的形容词一样，我都是这么形容自己的。但在某些时刻，我也是个在和抑郁情绪作斗争的人。失眠，没有食欲，活力丧失……我极度渴求拥抱，又在拥抱穿过崇山峻岭赶来的时候临阵脱逃。

“当你意识到快乐的那一刻，就是它开始消逝的时候。” 很多人对抑郁症的普遍看法是，抑郁无非是人对于生活感到失望和悲伤，就像是生活中的一些不顺心的小事，比如：工作压力逼退发际线，热烈后的爱情举步维艰，造成的不开心情绪……但事实上，抑郁情绪是，即使所有的事情都很顺利，你依然可以感觉到这种悲伤。就像身处漩涡，被巨大的阴影笼罩。

©牙疼

努力写出来这些文字很不容易，在拍摄专题的过程中，在和朋友的谈及中，我也尽量避开这些话题。每个人都拥有难过和沉湎于难过的权利，没有经历过的人是无法完全理解的。

把这些想说的话放在太阳光下赤裸裸地坦露出来，对任何人来说都不是一件容易的事。但来找我拍摄的女孩子们，我敬慕你们的勇气和信心，你们毫无保留地卸下社交伪装的面具，放松下来把自己的亲生经历和故事讲给了我听，某一时刻，于我而言，是最真诚的信任和直抵灵魂的鼓励。

但不可回避，这也是当下最普遍的问题了——年轻人的抑郁症。

策展人的话

本来以为抑郁症是种虚无缥缈的情绪，离我们很遥远，但可能有一天我们自己也会患上抑郁症。那时候会感觉所有不如意都在顷刻间如雪崩似袭来，把整个人埋在雪里动惮不得。那种长时间的窒息感，犹如十几把烧红的刀子同时捅入胸腔。甚至会不敢照镜子，然而看到张牙疼的作品时，犹如看见那个镜中的陌生人。

©牙疼

张牙疼试图通过影像记录他遇见每个人时不同的感受，这是一次关于现实情绪与焦虑对抗的实验。一些事物当我们意识到它的美好时，它就开始迅速消失的过程。他只能用影像去记录这种生活的“坍塌”和自身的困境，同时影像创作对于张牙疼来说也是一个发泄和释放的窗口，又或许是个治愈的手段。

画面中每个人物的情绪和肢体语言构成了这组作品。张牙疼把一个真实与荒诞、平静与张扬的小世界“直白”的呈现给观众。在这些作品中我们似乎能感受到自然界的循环往复，缘起缘灭，生生不息。在这样的循环中，蕴含着生命的悲怆，人生的无奈。

•                                 ——策展人：吴曦煌
  

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Depression Confession

It’s like living in two different sets of time and space;by turns, I cycle through two little lives. One clearly faces many people, flourishingand varied, and the other is only open to me, chaotic and changing.

A vital young person, an independent photographer, a goodfamily member, a… I would describe myself with all of the adjectives anyonecould think of. But sometimes, I battle depression. Insomnia, loss of appetite,and loss of vitality… I really want to embrace it, but I also want to stopbefore I careen over the edge.

“The momentyou realize that you’re happy is the moment it begins to slip away.” Manypeople think that depression is simply feeling despair or sadness, like when thelittle things in life make you unhappy—unhappiness at a receding hairline caused by stress at work, orunhappiness at the cooling of a passionate romance… In fact,depression is still feeling that sadness even though everything is going well. It’s like beingcaught in a whirlpool or blanketed by a huge shadow.

Writing these words was not easy, and when I was shootingthis series and talking with friends, I tried to avoid these topics. Everyone hasthe right to feel sad and be swallowed by that sadness, and people who have notexperienced it cannot fully understand it.

Frankly saying what I wanted to say, bringing it out intothe open, would be difficult for anyone. However, I admire the courage andconfidence of the girls who sought me out. They unreservedly took off theirsocial disguises; they relaxed and told me about their personal experiences,which represented sincere confidence and reassurance for me.

Despite this, we cannot escape that depression inyoung people is a common issuetoday.

                                                     -Zhang Yateng

Curator's Commentary

I had originally thought that depressionwas an imaginary feeling, one that was very distant, but you might suffer from depressionyourself one day. When that happens, all of your dissatisfaction barrels downon you like a growing snowball, burying you entirely so that you cannot move. Thatpersistent suffocating feeling is like dozens of hot knives being simultaneouslydriven into your chest. You may not even dare to look in the mirror, but whenwe look at Zhang Yateng’s pictures, it’s like seeing a stranger in that mirror.

Zhang attempts to record inphotographs the different feelings he experiences on meeting people. This is anexperiment with real emotions and resistance to anxiety. When we realize thegoodness of certain things, it quickly begins to fade. He uses photography onlyto record the “collapse” and confusion of life, and for Zhang, photography is arelease valve, or maybe a treatment method.

This series is made up of theemotions and body language of his subjects. Zhang Yateng “frankly” presents atrue yet absurd, calm yet expressive little world to viewers. In these works,we are almost able to feel the cycles of the natural world—appearing,disappearing, and multiplying endlessly. This cycle reflects the grief andhelplessness in life.

                                                                                         -Curator: Wu Xihuang

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