钻石与铁锈：我们都会不朽，只是与爱无关。。

去年十月，在复旦北区学生公寓这边的食堂吃饭时，欢颜发来一首歌的链接，是Joan Baez《Diamonds And Rust》。

也许我真的不该在吃饭的时候听它。是的，撩人的吉他前奏把惆怅、不舍和无奈的作品基调渲染得恰到好处，更别说那个稍显尖锐而又深情款款的女声了。我知道有些歌曲是用生命在吟唱的，灵动、婉约，而且疼痛。

外面的阳光很好，午后的单身宿舍，很适合怀念。非常感谢她的分享，这首歌让我懂得：我所经历的，正在经历的，都不是单独。那些让我寝食难安、漫漫无期的怀念和挣扎，也是你的、你的，和你的。

那天之后，小心翼翼地把歌曲添加在微信的“收藏”，却不敢听。直到后来的后来，临睡前，用这首歌的时间，去做平板支撑。然后，我就可以精疲力竭地喘着粗气，倒在床上，享受静静的哀伤。

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Diamonds And Rust - Joan Baez

Well I'll be damned

噢，我真该死

Here comes your ghost again

你的幻影又再出现

But that's not unusual

但那并非不寻常

It's just that the moon is full

只因在这满月时分

And you happened to call

你恰巧打电话过来

And here I sit

而我坐在这儿

Hand on the telephone

手持电话

Hearing a voice I'd known

听着遥远记忆里

A couple of light years ago

熟悉的声音

Heading straight for a fall

直坠入深渊之中

As I remember your eyes

我记得你的双眼

Were bluer than robin's eggs

比知更鸟蛋的颜色更蓝

My poetry was lousy you said

你说我写的诗糟透了

Where are you calling from

“你从哪里打电话来?”

A booth in the midwest

“中西部的某个电话亭”

Ten years ago

十年前

I bought you some cufflinks

我买过一些袖口扣给你

You brought me something

你也送给我一些东西

We both know what memories can bring

我们都知道回忆能带来些什么

They bring diamonds and rust

它们带来了钻石与铁锈

Well you burst on the scene

噢，当年你突然而至

Already a legend

已是奇迹

The unwatched phenomenon

未受关注的奇迹

The original vagabond

你最初漂泊流浪

You strayed into my arms

泊入了我的臂弯

And there you stayed

在那里，你短暂停留

Temporarily lost at sea

只因迷航海上

The madonna was yours for free

圣母玛利亚无偿眷顾你

Yes the girl on the half-shell

是的，单片贝壳上的爱神维纳斯

Would keep you unharmed

当年能保护你免受伤害

Now I see you standing

此刻，我看到你伫立在

With brown leaves falling around

纷飞的褐色落叶中

And snow in your hair

雪落发梢

Now you're smiling out the window

此刻，你就在那间

Of that crummy hotel

破旧旅馆窗前

Over washington square

对着下面的华盛顿广场微笑

Our breath comes out white clouds

我们彼此呼出的气息如云雾般交错

Mingles and hangs in the air

凝结在空气中

Speaking strictly for me

对于我，严格来说

We both could have died then and there

当时的场景足以令我们死而无憾

Now you're telling me

如今，你对我说

You're not nostalgic

你并不念旧

Then give me another word for it

那么请用另一个词来代替

You who are so good with words

你向来擅于措辞

And at keeping things vague

擅于把事情模糊化

Because I need some of that vagueness now

因为此刻我正需要那种模糊

It's all come back too clearly

过去的一切都太清晰地呈现

Yes I loved you dearly

是的，我曾深爱着你

And if you're offering me diamonds and rust

而倘若你还想带给我钻石与铁锈

I've already paid

那么，我已经为此付出过代价了

后来的后来，终于明白：歌曲会不朽，我们的青春会不朽，我们，也会因为那些誓言、甜蜜和梦想而不朽。

唯一的遗憾只是，这种不朽，已经与爱无关。