曾经抑郁的禅师 The Sayadaw who had depression
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前言：主页君写给抑郁症患者的话。德加尼亚禅师在出家之前，用禅修摆脱了抑郁症。但是，我们需要了解的是，禅师在得抑郁症之前，已经对禅修的方法非常熟练。所以主页君并不建议抑郁症患者马上停止目前的治疗（例如药物）而用禅修来治疗抑郁症。想尝试用禅修的方法固然好，但请你谨慎，确保自己获得了关于禅修的正确信息，并在有经验的老师指导下练习，关于停止药物治疗的决定还需与您的主治医生商量。
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<The Sayadaw who had depression 曾經抑鬱的禪師>
I began practicing at age fourteen, so long before I experienced depression I’d already developed the ability to regard anything that came up in my mind and deal with it objectively, without getting involved or taking it personally when ugly stuff came up.
我從十四歲已經開始禪修，所以我在未曾抑鬱前早已能夠觀察心中生起的東西，並客觀地處理它們，而不是在這些醜陋的東西出現時把它們當作是我的，或者捲入其中。
When I became depressed I could apply all theseskills. I’ve been depressed three times. The first time I made a strong effort,just snapped myself out of it. And the second time, too. But each time thedepression came back, and each time it came back stronger. My recovery didn’tlast long.
當我抑鬱時，我可以應用所有這些技巧。我曾經抑鬱過三次。第一次我用了很大的精進力，快速地把自己抽離出來。第二次也是這樣。但每一次抑鬱都會回來，而每一次都會越來越強。康復的時間也維持不久。
I know now that the first two times I’d used effort but no wisdom, no understanding. During the last depression, I had no energy left in me to make the effort. Depression followed me everywhere.
現在我知道第一、二次我用了精進力但沒有智慧、沒有理解。在最後一次抑鬱時，我已經沒有能量去提起精進力。抑鬱時時刻刻跟著我。
The key for me in dealing with my depression was right attitude. I realized I’d have to use my wisdom to learn about it,understand it. By just recognizing the depression and being present with it. I would just recognize that this was nature, that this was just a quality of mind; it was not personal. I watched it continually to learn about it. Does it go away? Increase? What is the mind thinking? How do the thoughts affect feelings? I became interested.
我能處理抑鬱的關鍵是正見。我發現我要用智慧去學習、理解它。當我覺知到抑鬱，並與它一起保持在當下，我就明白到這只是自然法。是心的其中一種素質。不是"人"。我繼續觀察，從中學習。它有沒有消失?增長? 心在想甚麼?念頭怎樣影響感受? 我開始有興趣。
I saw that when I’d do the work with interest, myinvestigation would bring some relief. Before that I’d been at the depression’smercy, but I learned I could actually do something. I was choosing to beproactive, to find out about depression, and then it lightened.
我發現當我帶著興趣去禪修時，我的探索能帶來一點慰藉。在這之前我完全被抑鬱操控了，但我學到原來有些東西可以做。我選擇反客為主，去了解抑鬱，它就減輕了。
德加尼亚禅师
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