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来自马来西亚的小雨曾给大家分享，她在确诊后换了多家医院的多个医生，完美诠释了“先找对医生，再信任医生”。有时候就诊的不愉快并非医患双方各自的问题，讲究的还是匹配度。专家教授不一定就适合你，希望大家都能找到让你信服的医生。
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作者|小雨 编辑|Emile
致我敬爱的黄医生：
我在双相情感障碍的路上一路跌跌撞撞后才遇见您。我一路撞南墙，换了三位医生，而每次更换医生的原因都并不一样。
第一位医生很好，只可惜她所在的医院素质和系统并不好。第二位医生让我觉得他歧视精神病患，他把我的喜怒哀乐全盘当作病态。第三位医生接诊的病人太多了，我曾在察觉躁狂复发后，拨电话找医生，他的护士却说需要等到四天后才能见到他。
我一直坚持着一个信念，一旦察觉任何不对劲的情况，我就马上去医院复查。我第一次来到医生您所在的医院时，您的护士告诉我：“在这里要见精神科医生是需要预约的。”不过，护士最后还是拨打电话询问您，而您说：“那么我半个小时后就到医院。”这无疑给了我很好的第一印象。之前的医生总是让我等太久太久，而您确是为我而来的。这是您让我感动的第一件事情。
第一次见您，您问我：“有什么我可以帮助到你吗？”我说：“我生病了。”我并不想马上被判死刑，又说：“医生，你是我见的第四位精神科医生。”您说：“哦，这是个很好的讯息。”
我向您慢慢叙述我一路走来吃过的药物，病发症状，当我向您叙述我不明不白地被之前的医院约束时，您说：“我真的为你的遭遇感到抱歉。”我当下哭了，这是我等了很久想听的话。结束前，我问您：“我还是双相情感障碍吗？”您说：“是的。”再接着道：“双相并不能判断你的性格，你还是你自己。”我的眼泪再次掉下。
第一次看诊结束，您说想要三天后再见到我。我说我需要上班，老板那边并不好交代。我问您：“我有那么令您担心吗？”您说：“是啊。”接着，您马上写信请我的老板让我提早下班去见您。您说您愿意等我等到您下班时间都过了，我遇到的医生总是让我等他们，而这一次换成医生您来等我。这是您让我感动的第二件事情。
第二次见您，我因上诉约束之前的医院而受到院方的威胁，说是想报警将我抓进精神病院。我第一时间向您求救，您不怕对方医院，告诉我：“如果有天警察想抓你进精神病院，请马上通知我，我可以为你的精神状态作证。”你的话让我安心。我问您：“身为医生可以这样威胁病患吗？”您毫不犹豫地告诉我：“当然不能。” 这是您让我感动的第三件事情。
第三次见您，我因上诉失败向您哭诉。我问您：“如果您站在我的角度，您会怎么做？”您非常理智地回答我：“第一，我不会像你摔坏那么昂贵的手机。第二， 我会骂那位负责我的案子的人粗话。”您身为医生，却毫不犹豫地把粗话骂出来。我觉得我得到认同，我释怀了，因为你的粗话。这是您让我感动的第四件事情。
第五次见到您，我的情绪很稳定。您决定让我减药物了。我说：“医生，我就等您宣布哪天我再也不需要吃药了。”您无奈地看着我说：“你别忘了你还有三种药物要吃。”我笑了，并向您道别。
医生，我们认识的时间不长，您说过，也许哪天您也会像其他医生一样让我失望，而我非常庆幸能够遇见您。我在观音亭抽了个签：
丧江风浪渐渐静
于今得进可安宁
必有贵人相扶持
凶事脱出见太平
我相信签里说的贵人就是医生您。不过，医生，我写了那么多，只可惜您看不懂中文（笑）。
I met you after a bump on the road to bipolar disorder. I hit the south wall all the way and changed three doctors, and the reasons for each doctor change were different.
The first doctor was fine, but unfortunately the quality and system of her hospital was not good. The second doctor made me think he was discriminating against the mentally ill, and he treated my joy and sorrow as a disease. The third doctor received so many patients that I called the doctor after I noticed a manic relapse, but his nurse said it would take four days for him to see him.
I have always maintained a belief that if I notice anything wrong, I will go to the hospital immediately for a review. When I first came to the doctor's hospital, your nurse told me, "It's a need to see a psychiatrist here." "However, the nurse finally called to ask you, and you said, "Then I'll be in the hospital in half an hour. "
It gave me a good first impression. The doctor always kept me waiting too long, and you did come for me. This is the first thing you touched me.
The first time I saw you, you asked me, "Is there anything I can do to help you?" "I said, "I'm sick. "I didn't want to be sentenced to death right away, and I said, "Doctor, you're the fourth psychiatrist I've ever seen." "You say, "Oh, that's a good message. "
I slowly describe the medications I've taken along the way, my symptoms, and when I tell you about my unexplained restraint strapped to my previous hospital, you say, "I'm really sorry for what happened to you." "I'm crying right now, and that's what I've been waiting for a long time to hear. Before I finish, I ask you, "Am I still bipolar disorder?" "You say, "Yes." Then he said, "Bipolar can't judge your character, you're still yourself." "My tears fell again.
At the end of your first visit, you said you wanted to see me three days later. I said I needed to go to work, and the boss didn't have a good time. I asked you, "Do I worry you that much?" "You say, "Yeah. "Then you immediately wrote to my boss and asked me to leave work early to see you. You said you would wait until i have passed after your work time, i met the doctor always let me wait for them, and this time replaced by a doctor you come to wait for me. This is the second thing that moved you.
The second time I saw you, I was threatened by the hospital because of the appeal to restrain the former hospital, saying that I was going to call the police and put me in a mental hospital. I first call you for help, you are not afraid of the other hospital, tell me: "If the police want to arrest you into a mental hospital, please immediately inform me, I can testify for your mental state." "Your words give me peace of mind. I asked you, "Can you threaten patients like this as a doctor?" "You didn't hesitate to tell me: "Of course not. This is the third thing that moved me.
The third time I saw you, I cried to you for the failure of the appeal. I asked you, "What would you do if you stood in my point of view?" "You answer me very wisely: "First, I'm not going to break a cell phone as expensive as you do." Second, I'll scold the man in charge of my case for swearing. "As a doctor, you don't hesitate to scold you. I think I've got recognition, and I'm relieved because of your rude ness. This is the fourth thing that moved me.
The fifth time I saw you, my mood is very stable. You decided to let me take the drug. I said, "Doctor, I'll wait for you to announce that I'm not going to need any more medicine." "You looked at me helplessly and said, "Don't forget you have three more drugs to take." I smiled and said good-bye to you.
Doctor, we didn't know you long, you said, maybe one day you'll let me down like any other doctor, and I'm glad to meet you. I drew a sign at the Guanyin Pavilion:
The wind and waves of the river are calming down
In this day and there is peace
There must be support for your son
The murder came out to see the peace
I believe the sign said that the noble person is the doctor you. But, doctor, I've written so much, but unfortunately you can't read Chinese.